I fell off the wagon only 3 days after getting on. My mother came to visit and that just did me in. One day I will write a long post about my mother. I am convinced that at least some ... maybe a large part ... of my eating has to do with trying to nurture myself in the face of ineffective parenting.
Anyway, I don't want to dwell on that right now. I want to thank Abba, Celtic Girl, Livy, Lyn, Melissa and Spidey for welcoming me to the blogging weight loss community and supporting my fledgling efforts to face my eating/weight/health demons. Much appreciated!!!
I decided to start fresh so I have deleted my three previous posts and have resurrected the first one with the photos and a little background info.
I have been overweight for most of my life and I have hated it.
When I was in my mid 20's I went into Overeaters Anon. and lost all the weight and kept if off for a number of years even after I left OA. Slowly over the past 7 years though, I have put it all back on.
I am ashamed of the way I look now and am very uncomfortable in my body. My health is beginning to be affected by my poor eating habits, lack of exercise and obesity.
I want to live a full life in a healthy body. This means that I have to change my behaviour in order to lose the excess weight.
My plan is to do what has worked for me before. Eat three low carb. weighed and measured meals and one snack per day if needed, drink 8 cups of water everyday, take my vitamins, exercise, get plenty of rest and meditate.
The only other thing that I am going to add is that, I have noticed a pattern in my attempts at weight loss. I deprive myself of sweet stuff every time I start a weight loss program, then at some point, I eat something sweet and then feel guilty and go on a huge binge of only sweet stuff as though I am trying to fill up because I'll never be able to have something sweet again once I restart my weight loss program.
I think this time around, I am going to allow myself the option of have one monthly treat and see if this alleviates that sense of deprivation. Anyone have any thoughts on this?