Monday, 31 December 2007

Day 120 - Old Year's Night!!!

I haven't been able to blog as much as I would've liked to. I've usually been too exhausted at night to stay awake and write. Also my dial-up connection is so slow I get impatient with the length of time it takes to do everything.

First let me say my food plan has been shot to pieces and I can tell that I have put on weight, but I am taking it all in my stride knowing that when I get back to London and to my routine, I'll lose the weight again and continue my downward trend.

Since I last wrote I have been spending leisurely days at the beach, Paradise Beach

visiting relatives
Cousin Aña (I love this little girl)

Aunt Ivy (90 years old) and I

and exploring the countryside.
Mahogany Trees on Cherry Tree Hill

Boys cycling down hill in Hillaby


View of the East Coast from Cherry Tree Hill


Scotland District


Anglican Church


Windmill build by the Dutch and used to process sugar cane between 16th - 19th centuries


Delores, James and I visited the village where my mum was born. Life in this village hasn't changed much and we were able to find people who remembered my grandparents, my mother and her siblings.We plan to have a quiet Old Year's Night at home. Actually, I am probably going to be asleep by 10pm. so that we can wake up by about 5:30am to go out and watch the sunrise on the first day of the new year.

Monday, 24 December 2007

Day 127 - Merry Christmas

The last few days have been busy busy busy with all sorts of Christmas stuff. We had a photographer come in to take some family photos. Here are my parents with sister no. 3 Jen. Jen wore her hair loose for the photo. It is rather beautiful and rootsy to look at, but I wouldn't want it on my head. I think it must be half of her body weight and would make me hot and miserable, but she says it's no bother.

This year we drew names for the first time for gift giving. Like so many adults in wealthy nations, we all have enough crap in our lives and really don't need any more so we thought this was a good way to keep the stuff to a minimum. I got sister no. 2 Dee. I am giving her a spa treatment which I think she will enjoy.

We have divided the Christmas meal between all of us, so that everyone is responsible for a few dishes. I (funny enough) have most of the dessert dishes. Today I was a baking genie. I baked a pineapple upside-down cake, a cheesecake and three loafs of a Barbadian speciality called coconut bread (which I am very good at making, if I do say so myself).
Coconut bread is more of a cake than a bread but it is denser than cake and filled with coconut, raisins and cherries. The trick is to get it moist rather than dry. Delores, James and I tested this one after it came out of the oven, just to make sure it was okay. They said it was my best yet. ;P

My mother, Dee and her husband are religious fanatics so before the crack of dawn on Christmas day they'll be out of the house to go to Church to celebrate the birth of their saviour. My dad, James, sister no.1 Delores, and I are heathens so there'll be no church going for us. James, Delores and I spend the evening gallivanting and then stayed up late drinking (they beer, me my plus) and dishing family dirt. LOL!!! We'll be crawl out of our beds around the time the church goers are returning home from church.

Most people here decorate the outside of their homes modestly or not at all, but a few people go all out. This is a house down the road from my parents. They have decorated it to this degree on all four sides. :o
Guess they're just having a bit of fun, eh?

Saturday, 22 December 2007

Day 129

Have been having a lovely time. My eldest sister Dolores arrived from New York yesterday. Now we are all here. Dad, Mum, four sisters Dolores, Dee, Jen and me with spouses/partners and one niece.

As you can see I have not succeeded in writing every evening as hoped. It took me a little while to get Internet access into my room but I finally got it sorted tonight. So hopefully I can get down to business from tomorrow. I am using a telephone wire though and everything is so slow. I've been trying to upload some picture all evening and not having any luck. I think I need to make them smaller or something.

Anyway, my food has not been clean. I have been having far more carbs, fats and sugars than I am use to, though in moderate proportions. I think I'll allow myself some play room over the next few days and then tighten up again after that.

Only two days until Christmas. Gosh!!!

Tuesday, 18 December 2007

Day 133

It's so nice to be home!!! I'm always struck by how different life here is from life in the cities I've lived in. For one nature is ever present. I love the cacophony of cocks crowing, wood doves cooing and birds chirping that meet every dawn and the crickets and whistling frogs that accompany the dusk. I don't like the white lizards (I guess they're geckos), the centipedes, the flying cockroaches, or any other creeping, crawling or flying insects that invade the house. Now it would be great if my parents put screens at all the windows and doors, but I guess they think that would make life too pleasant. LOL!!!

Barbadians are quite warm and chatty people and that takes some getting use to after England where the people are quite cool and taciturn. I forget how much light friendly banter goes on here. I couldn't believe the number of strangers who shared a laugh and a light comment with me just between the plane and getting into my sister's car.

My second sister Dee, grows orchids and put this beautiful one in our room.

We spent a quiet day at home today kind of acclimatising, playing with my niece Lilee,
decorating the tree
and of course catching some zzzzzzzzz in the hammock.
I haven't figured out my food yet. We have to go to the supermarket and get what we like. I'm going to start recording my food here as usual soon, just to keep clear about what I'm consuming.

Monday, 17 December 2007

Arrived Safely

We arrived safely to blue skies and sunshine.

Jen and Lilee picked us up at the airport. Here is a picture of Jen. She is a rastafarian and that big bundle on her head is her knee length dreadlocks tied up in a scarf.

Day 134

Okay, time for a little confession here. I love travelling but I HATE flying. I can usually manage up to 5 hr. flying without a major panic attack but the longer I stay in the air the more opportunity for my compulsive obsessive personality to take over. I have to do a lot to distract myself from the hysteric brought on by the idea that goes around and around in my head that there is a thin piece of metal between me and thousands of feet of nothing. My regulation carry-on luggage is stuffed with book-on-tape, ipod, notebook, novel, even my embroiderer kit (don't worry no scissors and just a blunt needle - don't want Scotland Yard or MI5 branding me the latest terror suspect.) My best defense though is sleep, so when I am taking a morning flight, I sometimes skip sleep the night before so that I'm so tired I have no choice other than to fall asleep once I am settled on board and if things go well when I wake up, I'm there.

Sunday, 16 December 2007

Day 135

Well, I'm finally all packed and tomorrow I shall be up bright and early for my flight at 11am. My sister Jen and her daughter (my only niece) Lilee, will be picking us up at the airport. The flight is about 9 hours ( which I will sleep through hopefully), but because of the time difference we will get there around 3pm Barbados time.


This is the best time to go to the southern Caribbean. Actually anytime between October - April is pretty good. It's out of hurricane season and the temperatures are reasonable, usually between 24C/76F - 30C/86F.

There are many things, I'm looking forward to: playing games and doing art projects with Lilee who is 8; gossiping with my sisters; watching the sunrise over the horizon; reading and falling asleep in the hammock with James; drinking the only soft drink in the world that I like, which can only be had in Barbados, Plus; hanging out with my friend Everton and hopefully catching up with a few others; hanging out in rum shops with James and hopefully my oldest sister Delores where they will drink Rum and I will drink Plus because I detest the taste of alcohol; playing tennis in the sun (that will be a shock considering I've only played it here in the cold and damp; drinking lots of golden apple fruit juice ( soooooooooooo incredible delicious); swimming in the beautifully clear blue Caribbean sea instead of a chemical filled pool; snorkeling and hopefully some scuba and sailing; going for long walks; having at least a slice of Barbadian pizza (yes, there is such a thing); watching the sun set on the horizon; twilight (my favourite time of the day); and eating all our traditional dishes on Christmas Day, in moderation of course ;p

I will definitely be blogging from Barbados and reading all my blogging buddies as usual. My plan is to do so, every night before I go to bed. In saying this, I just realised that blogging has truly become a part of my life and I couldn't image not checking in to say how I am doing and to visit my blogging buddies. For some reason this realisation makes me happy. Hmmmmm!

B
1 cup cereal
1/2 cup milk
1 tbls. agave
1 cup fruit juice

Saturday, 15 December 2007

Day 136

B - 367
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
50 g dried fruit - 122
16 oz/470ml H2O

L
Vegetable Quiche and salad
16 oz/470ml H2O

D
Vegetable Quiche
1/2 chocolate brownie
16 oz/470ml H2O

Friday, 14 December 2007

Day 137

I love my new haircut.


B
52gs Haloumi cheese
1 cup salad with 1 tbls. dressing
2 glasses of orange juice

L
113 g salmon
2 cups salad
1 tbls dressing

Thursday, 13 December 2007

Day 138

B - 367
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
50 g dried fruit - 122
16 oz/470ml H2O

L
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

D
2 grilled cheese sandwiches
Chocolate pudding
16 0z/470ml H2O

Calories -
Exercise - 0 :(
H2O - oz

Wednesday, 12 December 2007

Day 139

I'm actually feeling a little better today. It's been a really sunny though bitterly cold day. I am off to return some books to the library and get my hair conditioned and cut. I had a somewhat productive day. Did A LOT of laundry and caught up on a ton of emails that were waiting for a response. One has been waiting since March 2006. LOL!!! Talk about procrastinating :(

B - 367
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
50 g dried fruit - 122
16 oz/470ml H2O

L
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

D
Veggie burger and 52gs. shrimp
1 cup of carrots and beans
1 cup of avocado and cucumber
1/2 cup brown rice
1 1/2 tbls. fat
16 oz/470ml H2O

S
1 chocolate

16 oz/470ml H2O



Tuesday, 11 December 2007

Day 140

Boy do bad habits die hard. My term has ended and I have begun my late night forays again. I am so off right now it's just tragic. There is absolutely no good reason for me to be up at 4am. doing God knows what. F***ing around truth be told. I have always liked the wee hours of the morning when the world outside is asleep, but it's a dangerous time, yeah? Food can walk into my mouth. LOL!!! I have to laugh right now or I'd cry.

B
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L
250/8 oz yogurt- 245

S
250/8 oz yogurt- 245

D
Eight sushi rolls again (told you I was compulsive, had to make them again)
Organic (LOL) Chocolate pudding
2 chocolates
16 oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 735 + dinner which I don't have calories info. for
Exercise - 0 :(
H2O - 32oz :(

Monday, 10 December 2007

Day 141 - I MADE SUSHI!!!!

I haven't been writing my food down which is a bad sign. Writing my food each day keeps me conscious, honesty, transparency and accountable. Now I don't even remember what I ate. It definitely wasn't foods from my plan. I know that.


My blahs continue. I am going to take Sayre's suggestion and get one of those lights when I get back from Barbados. I saw one that's like an alarm clock with the light being the alarm. That would really be nice as one of the biggest problems is getting up in the morning.

During the first half of my life I use to wake up when the sun climbed over the horizon and shone through my bedroom window onto my face. It was the nicest feeling in the world.

B
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 187
140 g tofu- 137
2 cups soup - 50
16 oz/470ml H2O

S
250/8 oz yogurt- 245


D
8 sushi rolls - calories unknown
I found some recipes on line and bought the stuff I needed and made California and sumosan roles tonight. I had not idea they were so easy to make. ;P Of course mine need perfecting. In time ... in time. Btw. the plate they are on is a small plate. Don't want you to think they're jumbo sushi filling a dinner plate. Also ate chocolate again tonight. :(
Calories -
Exercise - 0
H2O -

Sunday, 9 December 2007

Day 142

B - 350
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
30g dried fruit
16 oz/470ml H2O

Saturday, 8 December 2007

Day 143

B -
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L
Quiche and salad
16 oz/470ml H2O

D
Quiche and salad
Curry and brown rice

Calories -
Exercise - 0
H2O -

Friday, 7 December 2007

Day 144

I am pleased to say that I had a relatively successful day yesterday. I did the elliptical trainer for an hour, my water consumption is almost back on target, and though my calorie intake was a little high, I had no chocolate. Yeah!!!!

Thank you for all your wonderful comments. They were very helpful and they made me feel sooooooooo much better and much more determined to take control of the situation and stop the slide into the black abyss. A burden shared is definitely a burden lightened.

When I read a new commenter Half Man share that he continued to run in Michigan in winter and I thought about another blogger Tracy who does the same thing in Chicago (both on the other side of frosty Canada) I went out to the patio and got on that elliptical trainer immediately. How's that for inspiration? When I was on it, it was so easy to do and felt so good that I couldn't believe I had been avoiding it?

With all the talk about winter blues and the importance of light (and exercise) I thought I'd make a little ticker to count down going home for Christmas. I was born and grew up in Barbados and though I have now lived outside Barbados longer than I have lived in Barbados, I consider it my emotional/psychological home.

I am really looking forward to seeing my family again and soaking up some of that sun.



B - 350
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
1 banana - 105
16 oz/470ml H2O

Thursday, 6 December 2007

Day 145

Winter doesn't work for me. I love Autumn and Spring, but I HATE winter. It isn't just the cold that I hate, but the lack of light that I absolutely detest. In truth even though I love Autumn, from the moment the first chill in the air signals its arrival, I start to feel a creeping melancholy.


The British isles are cold, grey and damp and in the winter the days are super short. Sometimes you don't see the sun for weeks and if you do it is fleeting - a you'll miss it if you blink experience. For a long time I have suspected that the lack of sunlight affects my mood. Now I am sure of it.
According to the Seasonal Affective Disorder Association:
SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is a type of winter depression that affects an estimated half a million people every Winter between September and April, in particular during December, January and February.

It is caused by a biochemical imbalance in the hypothalamus due to the shortening of daylight hours and the lack of sunlight in winter.

For many people SAD is a seriously disabling illness, preventing them from functioning normally without continuous medical treatment. For others, it is a mild but debilitating condition causing discomfort but not severe suffering. We call this subsyndromal SAD or 'winter blues.'

Symptoms

Sleep problems: Usually desire to oversleep and difficulty staying awake
but, in some cases, disturbed sleep and early morning
wakening
Lethargy: Feeling of fatigue and inability to carry out normal routine
Overeating: Craving for carbohydrates and sweet foods, usually
resulting in weight gain
Depression: Feelings of misery, guilt and loss of self-esteem,
sometimes hopelessness and despair, sometimes
apathy and loss of feelings
Social problems: Irritability and desire to avoid social contact
Anxiety: Tension and inability to tolerate stress
Loss of libido Decreased interest in sex and physical contact
Mood changes In some sufferers, extremes of mood and short periods
of
hypomania (overactivity) in spring and autumn.

I definitely have a number of these symptoms.

Treatment

Light therapy has been shown to be effective in up to 85 per cent of diagnosed cases. That is, exposure, for up to four hours per day (average 1-2 hours) to very bright light, at least ten times the intensity of ordinary domestic lighting.
Antidepressant Drugs like Prozac are effective in alleviating the depressive symptoms and combing well with light therapy.
Psychotherapy
, counselling or any complementary therapy which helps the sufferer to relax, accept their illness and cope with its limitations are extremely useful.
Vigorous exercise, especially outdoor activities.

Now, isn't that something. All roads lead back to exercise. I've been eating chocolate without realising that I was trying to raise my serotonin levels in order to alleviate feelings of melancholy created by SAD. Instead I should be exercising vigorously outdoor which will not only make me feel better but help me lose weight. Go figure!!! Well tennis and tango are done for the year but I do have my elliptical trainer which lives on my patio. My goal today is to get on it.

B - 350
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
1 banana - 105
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 450
Cheese and vegetable quiche - 450
16 oz/470ml H2O

S
100g mackerel - 355

D - 450
Cheese and vegetable quiche - 450
16 oz/470ml H2O


Calories - 1605
Exercise - 1 hour on the elliptical trainer so far (Hooray!!!)
H2O - 48 oz


Wednesday, 5 December 2007

Day 146

I am in the doldrums and I hit the chocolate again today. :( It's my own fault for bringing chocolate into the house in the first place.

B - 245

250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O


L - 450
Cheese and vegetable quiche - 450
16 oz/470ml H2O

Grazed on chocolate for the rest of the day. :(

Calories - 695 +
Exercise - 0
H2O - 32 oz

Tuesday, 4 December 2007

Day 147

My strange mood still hasn't lifted but at least my food is back on track. Still have to work on my water and exercise.

B - 407
1 banana - 60
50 g dried fruit - 82
113 g soymilk - 65
52 g oatmeal - 200
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 245

250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 250
3 caps of Pea and vegetable soup - 250

D - 450
Cheese and vegetable quiche - 450

Calories - 1352
Exercise - 0
H2O - 32 oz

Monday, 3 December 2007

Day 148 - A Song For You

Had a better day today than yesterday. Was able to get back on track food wise though I had an appointment this morning and had to leave early so did not get to exercise as planned.

B - 466
Cooked apple, dried fruit,cinnamon and agave- 208
52 g oatmeal - 200
150 ml soymilk - 62
16oz H2O

L - 245
250g/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 197
28g/1oz cheese - 114
2 tbls hummus - 63
1 carrot - 20

D - 250
3 cups Pea and vegetable soup - 250

Calories - 1158
Exercise - 0
H2O - 32 oz

Sunday, 2 December 2007

Day 149

Was feeling out of sorts all day. Didn't feel like being bothered with anything. Lost the plot this afternoon and had about 8 sweet biscuits. They ruined my appetite for the rest of the day. Have been having chocolate everyday since Friday. Trying to escape a sense of loss and exhaustion I always feel at the end of term. I need to prepare myself better for the emotionally fall out at term's end, so I don't reach for food inappropriately.

B - 466
Cooked apple, dried fruit,cinnamon and agave- 208
52 g oatmeal - 200
150 ml soymilk - 62
16oz H2O

S - 245
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

8 chocolate biscuits - ?

Calories - TBD
Exercise - 0
H2O - 8 oz (yikees)

Saturday, 1 December 2007

Day 150

B
Yogurt with granola, honey and banana
16 oz/470ml H2O

L
Quiche and salad
16 oz/470ml H2O

D
Cheese sandwich
16 oz/470ml H2O

S
3 chocolates
16 oz/470ml H2O

Calories - Unknown (was at a workshop all day & had all my meals out)
Exercise - 1/2 hour on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz/1.9 liters

Friday, 30 November 2007

Day 151

My honey and I attended a one day Basic First Aid training course conducted by the British Red Cross today. We kept talking about doing the course for many years but never got around to it until today.

The course was fantastic and such an eye opener. We learnt how to respond to all kinds of trauma, including severe burns, wounds, seizures, heart attacks, choking, drowning. If you have never done a first aid course, do one ASAP. The skills you learn may save a life and it may be the life of someone you love dearly.

B - 470
Cooked apple, dried fruit,cinnamon and agave- 208
52 g oatmeal - 200
150 ml soymilk - 62

16oz H2O

L
Quiche and salad - (calories unknown)
8 oz H2O

D
Quiche and salad - (calories unknown)
8 oz H2O

S
2 sweet biscuits and chocolates (calories unknown)
8 oz H2O

Calories - 470 + unknown calories
Exercise - 0
H2O - 40 oz

Thursday, 29 November 2007

Day 152

B - 466
Cooked apple, dried fruit,cinnamon and agave- 208
52 g oatmeal - 200
150 ml soymilk - 62

16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 245
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

D - 250
50 g lentils - 150
3 cups vegetables - 100
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 114
28 g cheese 114
16 oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1075
Exercise - 1/2 hour on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz/1.9 liters

Wednesday, 28 November 2007

Day 153

Meet my new healthy and easy living aids. Tada!!!Have I ever mentioned that I hate cooking? LOL!!! I don't always hate it but ... I mostly do. This is apparently a lazy ... errr ... oops ... I meant a busy woman's dream come true. We'll see!!! And this is the laz busy vegetarian woman's secret guide to dazzling her man when slow cooking. ;0

B - 466
Cooked apple, dried fruit,cinnamon and agave- 208
52 g oatmeal - 200
150 ml soymilk - 62
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 245
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

D - 350
50 g lentils - 150
3 cups vegetables - 100
1 tbs fat - 100
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 232
30g goji bursts -128
28 g cheese 114
16 oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1293
Exercise - 1/2 hour on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz/1.9 liters

Tuesday, 27 November 2007

Day 154

I weighed in yesterday, for Livy's Challenge and I've lost 1 kilo. To be clear, that's one kilo over the week which is also 1 kilo for the month because my monthly weigh day was today. I am not thrilled with my month's work, but that's what I get for inconsistently exercising for most of the month.

Livy has now extended her challenge until Christmas, which will give me the added incentive I need over the next three weeks to keep on track with my food and exercise.

My Weight Chart:
Weight Chart


B - 399
1 apple - 65
30 g raisins - 89
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 245
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

D - 400
140 g vegetarian mince - 150
3 cups vegetables - 100
11/2 tbs fat - 150
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 256
60g goji bursts - 256
16 oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1300
Exercise - 1/2 hour on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz/1.9 liters

Monday, 26 November 2007

Da 155

Thanks for all your well wishes. I'm feeling so much better today. Stomach still gurgling but the diarrhea is gone. I am drinking lots of water again and all systems seem to be functioning normally. I have begun to reintroduce foods. Started with the following today and will try regular meals tomorrow if all continues to go well tonight.

B
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

S
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L
52 g cheese 228
10 crackers - 190
16 oz/470ml H2O

D
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1153
Exercise - 1/2 hour on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz/1.9 liters

Sunday, 25 November 2007

Day 156

Okay folks, big apology up front for being crass here but I have to say, I got soooooo tired of urinating through my behind (it just ain't natural and I'm sore) that I stopped drinking water from around noon today, not that I was drinking that much to begin with ... just needed a break, you know what I mean.

Am so hungry that I've entered a strange delirious space where I just giggle all the time. Honey got me some Luczade and I've just had half a glass of that and if nothing happens, will risk having a yogurt. Had crackers last night and that didn't work out too well.

Even though my abdomen gurgles a lot , there is no pain or nausea today and for that I am very grateful.

Saturday, 24 November 2007

Day 156

Screeeeeeech ... that's my life coming to a halt. I woke up at 5am this morning to a killer pain in my abdomen and before I knew what was happening I had thrown up the contents of my stomach, last night's delicious dinner, in my bed. Yuuuuuuuck!!!! Not a good time to discover that my mattress pad is NOT waterproof. Bloody Hell!!!

My life for the past 10 hours has been an orgy of pain and every time I tried to drink even a tablespoon of water, out it came spewing from both ends of my body with a force and intensity that would make one think I'd swallowed the Nile. I know "once a man and twice a child" but I thought I had some years to go yet before I started crapping on myself again.

We called the medical hotline and apparently there is a vomit and diarrhea bug making its rounds through London. GREAT!!! The cure is rest and plenty of water to avoid dehydration. Kind of hard to do Lady, when every time I drink it causes severe cramps and projectile vomiting, not to mention ....

My honey went to the pharmacy and secured a miracle drug for me. You stick it under your front lip and it dissolves slowly and dissipates the nausea and vomiting. I've just woken up and am testing the waters again ... pun intended ... and low and behold minimal pain and no vomiting.

Now I have to try to down 8 - 12 cups of water over the rest of the day, to flush my system and rehydrate my body.

Did I mention I'm STARVING!!!

Friday, 23 November 2007

Day 157

One of my new blogging buddies Tracy, asked me: "Do you find yourself obsessing about this whole weight loss thing? I catch and stop myself from making it a focal point of my conversations ...."

Well I usually avoid the subject completely. Essentially, I give myself this whole blogging thing to obsess about weight loss. As you'll have notice, I write almost exclusively about my weight loss/health issues here and all of the blogs I link to focus on weight loss.

What I do here gives me the strength, courage and support to stay on track with my goal of eating well, exercising and thus bring my weight down to a acceptable level, but in the rest of my life I DO NOT talk about weight loss issues other than with my doctor and my honey.

I just don't find endless conversations about diets and weight loss etc. stimulating. Never have. If someone says, "have you lost weight?" I say, "maybe a little" and change the subject really quickly. I just don't want my whole life to become about my body and what's happening with it ... I don't like to be the center of attention in that way. If someone is overweight and is asking because they may want to know what's working for me I would just refer them to this blog and set up a specific time to talk more if they wanted to later.

In person you are more likely to hear me talking about hardcore socio-political issues than weight loss, but on the other hand, it is very unlikely you would see posts about socio-political issues here.

B - 450
1 banana - 60
50 g dried fruit - 82
113 g soymilk - 65
52 g oatmeal - 200
1 tbls. agave - 43
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 245
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 354
2 oz cheese - 228
3 cups cauliflower - 126

D - 403
141 g fish- 280
3 cups of salad - 21
1 tbls. butter - 102
16oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1452
Exercise - 1 hour on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz/1.9 liters

Thursday, 22 November 2007

Day 158 - Sweet Deal

I had such a lovely day. I worked at home this morning and then James and I took our work to a nearby cafe and spent the rest of the day working from there.

We ate both lunch and dinner there. My food was a little bit richer than usual, especially as I had a slice of bread at lunch and sampled three of James's fries at dinner, still I am happy that I made sound healthy choices when ordering my own food and everything was delicious.

The cafe we went to is called Pick More Daisies and fancies itself a California style joint. Yeah righttttt!!! Still it is a really sweet place, made much sweeter by a special offer they had going today. To celebrate the American holiday of Thanksgiving, you could pay for your meals in American currency. So if the bill came to £30, you'd pay US$30. Now that's a sweet deal. Don't you think? We have lots of various currencies floating around our apartment, so this deal gave us a chance to round up all our American dollars and spend them. Yippeee!!!

B - 450

1 banana - 60
50 g dried fruit - 82
113 g soymilk - 65
52 g oatmeal - 200
1 tbls. agave - 43
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 256
60g goji bursts
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 272
1 oz haloumi cheese - 100
1 slice bread - 88
2 cup of salad - 14
1 tbls dressing - 70
16 oz/470ml H2O

D - 419
141 g fish- 280
3 cups of salad - 21
1 tbls. dressing - 70
4 of Andrews chips - 48
16oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1397
Exercise - 1 hour on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz/1.9 liters

Wednesday, 21 November 2007

Day 159 - Patrick Stewart as Macbeth

Tonight, my honey took me to the theatre to see Patrick Stewart in the Shakespearean play Macbeth. It was directed by a young, up and coming director Rupert Goold and was fabulous.We had seats in the second row middle which ment that we got every golf ball shower that issued from Patrick's mouth ... which of course was an honour. ;0 We didn't have time to eat before we went and I didn't feel like eating out, so we waited until we got back which was quite late. I didn't want to go to bed with a huge meal in my stomach so I had some soup and then a yogurt.

I saw the Town Council workers putting up Christmas decorations on the light posts in my area of London today and I began to feel really excited about the coming of Christmas. I'm not even sure why because I don't usually celebrate Christmas, or any other kind of holiday, but for some reason I'm actually looking forward to this holiday.

I am loving what the elliptical trainer is doing for me. Just two days in and my clothes are already feeling looser. I am so glad I don't have to go to the gym anymore. The convenience of working out at home is second to none, especially as it has been too wet to play tennis.

B - 450

1 banana - 60
50 g dried fruit - 82
113 g soymilk - 65
52 g oatmeal - 200
1 tbls. agave - 43
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 253
60g goji bursts
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 332
2 oz cheese - 202
2cup of brussel sprouts - 130
16 oz/470ml H2O

D - 345
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
2 cups of soup - 100
16oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1380
Exercise - 1 hour on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz/1.9 liters

Tuesday, 20 November 2007

Day 160 - You don't bring me flowers ...

Okay, so one thing I hate about drinking water, is all the peeing it makes me do. Who has time to be running to the bathroom constantly? James says it's good exercise and I should count each trip towards my 10,000 steps a day goal! Right!

I got a nice bouquet of flowers today from Mr. Wise Guy. Why? Well, yesterday I had a somewhat dreadful day, full of little harassments and then on my way home I was running to get the bus on a wet pavement and I slipped TWICE believe it or not, landing hard on the same bum cheek each time. There were two men standing behind me and people walking past me and not ONE stopped to ask me if I was okay or if I needed help. Of course I missed the bus and had to wait for a good 15 minutes for the next one, then endured the hour long ride home sitting in soaking wet trousers and underwear with a sore butt. I woke up in agony this morning with a stiff shoulder and arm, a hurting wrist and a tender butt. My honey felt so sorry for me that he got me a little bouquet of flowers to cheer me up. Guess I should tumble over more often.

B - 466

Cooked apple, prunes,cinnamon and agave- 208
52 g oatmeal - 200
150 ml soymilk - 62
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 245
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 253
60g goji bursts
16 oz/470ml H2O

D - 270
2 oz cheese - 120
3 cups vegetables - 150

16 oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1234
Exercise - 1 hour on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz/1.9 liters

Monday, 19 November 2007

Day 161 - Livy's Three Week Weight Loss Challenge

Today begin's Livy's Three Week Weight Loss Challenge. I am off to a good start having done an hour on the elliptical trainer this morning, which made drinking my water very easy indeed. I decided to focus my goals on sticking to healthy habits rather than on losing a specific number of kilos. I figure if I make healthy choices consistently, I'll be happy with the outcome whatever it is.



B - 410

Cooked apple, raisins,cinnamon and agave- 148
52 g oatmeal - 200
150 ml soymilk - 62
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 245
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 306
2 oz cheese - 202
2 cups broccoli spears - 104

16 oz/470ml H2O

D - 337
2 oz cheese - 202
3 cups vegetables - 135

16 oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1298
Exercise - 1 hour on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz/1.9 liters

Sunday, 18 November 2007

Day 162

Thanks to Sayre, my house was filled with the most wonderful smell this morning. Sayre shared in a recent comment that she liked her oatmeal with applesauce. I though that was a nice idea, but I didn't have any applesauce. I did have apples though. Sooooo I peeled one, cut it up and boiled it in half a cup of water, with a cinnamon stick and some raisins. Before long the house was filled with the most divine smell ... definitely the smell you want to have on a cold grey winter morning. Once the water had boiled out, I added a tablespoon of agave, removed the cinnamon stick and placed the combo on top of my oatmeal. Then I poured my soymilk over this. Yummmmmy!!!

Notice I've been getting my 8 cups of water over the past few days. I changed my strategy with the water. I found a bottle that holds just about 64oz and I fill that in the morning and then consume it through out the day, taking it with me when I'm going to be out all day. When I finish the bottle, I know I've met my quota for the day. This has been working out so much better for me than trying to keep track of glasses throughout the day.

B - 410
Cooked apple, raisins,cinnamon and agave- 148
52 g oatmeal - 200
150 ml soymilk - 62
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 245
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 332
2 oz cheese - 202
2 cups brussels sprouts - 130

16 oz/470ml H2O

D - 302

2 oz cheese - 202
2 cups soup - 100
16 oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1290
Exercise - 0
H2O - 64 oz

Saturday, 17 November 2007

Day 163

I had a wonderful day. I had tennis in the morning, then an all day workshop which was really enjoyable.

I am a chronic class taker or as we say in England, a life-long learner. Essentially, I love to learn for no reason at all other than "because I don't know and I'm curious". I particularly like short courses - about 15hrs altogether usually spread over three or five sessions - because they usually pack a lot of information in over a short space of time and they're cheap.

I'm primarily drawn to anything to do with visual arts, literature, languages, culture and socio-political issues.

Anyway, had a great time at my workshop and finished off by having tea with two lovely women I met there.

B - 404
1 banana - 60
50 g dried fruit - 82
150 ml soymilk - 62
52 g oatmeal - 200
16 oz/470ml H2O

S - 245

250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O

L - 350 (I ate out so I am guessing the calories)
Mozarella salad with dressing
16oz/470ml H2O

D - 345
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
2 cups of soup - 100
16oz/470ml H2O

Calories - 1344
Exercise - 1 hr. tennis
H2O - 64 oz

Friday, 16 November 2007

Day 164 - The Perfect Day

I recognise that schedules get disrupted but I have not exercised in 1 WEEK , and I feel it.


I can tell that I haven't been losing weight over the past two week because my clothes are fitting much the same. I know my body very well. I need to keep my calorie intake around 1300 a day, day in day out and I need to get at least 30 minutes concentrated aerobic exercise 5 day per week to lose at 1-2 lbs per week steadily. Well when I look at my records for the month of November, I have been all over the place with food and exercise. Of course, living in a city and not having a car means that I move quite a bit when I am out and about. Many tube stops here are way way way way underground and though most of them have escalators I always take the stairs or run up and down the escalators. Still that's not enough. I need at least 30 minutes of aerobic activity to lose weight, so a week without exercising just WILL NOT DO.

As I have said before, I just hate gyms. I'm not knocking them for other people. I am not a "one size fit all" kind of gal. I understand that different things work for different people, and some people do extremely well in gyms and I say "YEAH" to that but, I have never been one of those people.

I have belonged to three gyms in my life and always ended up locked into year long memberships which I do not use or use scantily because I hate the feeling of "boring sweaty factory dronedom claustrophobia" I experience in a gym. The only time I have done well with exercise is when I could mold it to my lifestyle and for me that means get it out of the way first thing in the morning, shower and be done and ready to start my day.

So we have ... or actually my honey has put together the elliptical trainer which came in two box of a million bits and here it is: Tadaaaaaa. Tried it out this morning. It sways a little from side to side-definitely not as stable as those in the gym but moves just as well as they do. It has 12 levels, a panel will information like calories burned, speed, miles covered and time, also has little sensors to check your heart rate. For a couple of months of gym membership definitely forth the cost and convenience.

B - 404
1 banana - 60
50 g dried fruit - 82
150 ml soymilk - 62
52 g oatmeal - 200
16 oz/470ml H2O

My new breakfast obsession:
I am trying to go through my meals one by one and create a few combinations for each that I can rely on which are nutritionally dense and fall within my calorie limits. I am making breakfast my most calorie dense meal of the day. I love this breakfast. It is very nutritious, delicious and satisfying.

S
250/8 oz yogurt- 245
16 oz/470ml H2O
I love yogurt. This one is a new discovery and I am deeply in love with it. Notice it says wholemilk. I DO NOT DO no-fat or low-fat yogurt and I have normal cholestrol levels to prove it.

L - 224
1 veggie burger - 132
1 cup of carrots - 52
1 cup broccoli - 40
16oz/470ml H2O
I chopped up the veggie burger and use a couple squirts of olive oil spray (claims to be 1 calorie per squirt) to sautee it with an onion. I lightly steamed 1 cup of carrots and 1 cup of broccoli and seasoned afterwards with a little black pepper. I eat a lot of vegetables for their vitamins and minerals but also they fiber/carbohydrate content.

D - 370
2 oz cheese - 202
1 cup of brussel sprouts - 65
1 cup sweet pepper - 39
1 cup eggplant & onions - 64
16oz/470ml H2O
Calories - 1243
Exercise - 11kilometers/6 miles on the elliptical trainer
H2O - 64 oz

Thursday, 15 November 2007

Day 165

Today in old England is as cold as a witch's tit. Yeah, I know they are colder places in the world, but England is DAMP and that just gets down into your bones.

B - 404
1 banana - 60
50 g dried fruit - 82
150 ml soymilk - 62
52 g oatmeal - 200

S - 357
8 oz of fresh squeezed orange juice- 112
250 yogurt - 245

L - 451
250 g yogurt- 245
2 cup of vegetable soup - 206

D - 355
140 g vegetarian mince - 150
3 cups vegetables - 100
14 g butter - 105

Calories - 1567
Exercise - 0
H2O - 64 oz

Wednesday, 14 November 2007

Day 166

My elliptical trainer finally arrived. Yeah!!! Now I don't have to go to the wretched gym anymore. Just have to pick up my weights either this week or next and I'll be all outfitted for the price of a couple months membership.

B - 377
1/2 banana - 30
50 g dried fruit - 82
113 g soymilk - 65
52 g oatmeal - 200

S - 245
250 yogurt - 245

L - 451
250 g yogurt- 245
2 cup of vegetable soup - 206

D - 270
140 g quorn (vegetarian protein) - 170
3 cups vegetables - 100

Calories - 1343
Exercise - 0
H2O - 64 oz

Tuesday, 13 November 2007

Day 167

Okay, so Ms. Livy over at The Meanderings of a Woman's Outback Life tagged me and so I gotta reveals some deep dark secrets:

Four dishes I like to cook:
Four is really stretching it, but I guess I would have to go for the few dishes I have mastered (I am counting deserts in here)
Quiche
Cheesecake
Sweet bread (made with coconut)
Vegetarian Chili

Four qualities I love in people:
It's really hard to keep it to four but I guess I'd have to go for:
Integrity
Compassion
Warmth/Generosity
Intelligence

Four places I have been:
Don't know where to begin, so I'll choose places that begin with M just for the hell of it:
Morocco
Martinique
Montreal, Canada
Mississippi, USA

Four things in my bedroom:
Birth control (LOL)
Photo of my only niece, James and I
La Main de Fatima
Nighttime reads - at the moment, Grace Paley and Maya Angelou

Four dirty words I like to use (and wish I didn't say as often)
Okay, I am a complete dual personality. In the outside world I almost never swear, but at home I am the worse foul mouth you can imagine. When I am talking to James or a very close friend about someone who pissed me off, I usually say, whether I am talking about men or women:
F**ker - as in, "that f**ker had the nerve to ..."
Tosser - as in "that f**king tosser had the nerve to ..."
B**ch - as in " that f**king b**ch had the nerve to ..."
I also sometimes say, "Oh shite!!! as an exclamation.

I'm choosing the following people to be TAGGED, YOU'RE IT. Please answer the prompts by cut and pasting the above and replace my answers with your own:

Celtic Girl
Iron Man
Sayre
Tracy
Willow


B - 402
1 banana - 60
50 g dried fruit - 82
52 g oatmeal - 200
100 g soymilk - 60

L - 439
52 g goat cheese - 204
6 stuffed vine leaves - 235

S - 245
250 yogurt - 245

D - 560
200 g Goat cheese and onion quiche - 400
225 g carrot & swede - 160

Calories - 1646 - yikes!!!
Exercise - 0 - have been just too swamped this week to get to the gym or tennis, we'll see how tomorrow goes.
H2O - 32 oz

Monday, 12 November 2007

Day 168

B - 383
1 banana - 60
20 g raisins - 63
52 g oatmeal - 200
100 g soymilk - 60

L -
250 yogurt - 245
125 g goji berry cereal -

S
250 yogurt - 245

D -
52 g goat cheese
3 cups squach

Calories -
Exercise - 0
H2O - 32 oz

Sunday, 11 November 2007

Day 169

Well today is a new day and I want to bring my food and water consumption back in line.

B - 383
16 oz water
1 banana - 60
20 g raisins - 63
52 g oatmeal - 200
100 g soymilk - 60

L
16 oz water
250 yogurt - 245
60 g goji balls - 189

D
125 gWholegrain cereal
100 g soymilk - 60

Calories -
Exercise - 0
H2O - 24 oz

Saturday, 10 November 2007

Day 170

Didn't go to tennis or tango today. Am attending a workshop every Saturday from 10:30 - 16:30 for the next three weeks which clashes a bit with my tennis lesson which is 9-10. I didn't want to be late the first day of the workshop so I passed on the tennis. I did discuss the clash with the workshop facilitator and she didn't think it would be a problem if I was 15 - 30 minutes late for the other two sessions, so I won't have to miss anymore thank goodness.

B - 383
1 banana - 60
20 g raisins - 63
52 g oatmeal - 200
100 g soymilk - 60

L - ate out /calories unknown
Vegetarian Quiche
Two cups of salad

S
45 g goji balls - 189

D - ate out calories unknown
1 cup Vegetable Stew -?
1/2 cup barley - ?

S - 434
250 yogurt - 245
45 g goji balls - 189

Calories - 1006 + unknown lunch and dinner calories
Exercise - 0
H2O - 24 oz

Friday, 9 November 2007

Day 171

James and I had dinner with our neighbours Douglas and Alvaro tonight. They are such wonderful a couple and great cooks and great company. We had a blast. I had everything they served including a sweet for desert but I did have very small portions and no seconds. I'm still off in terms of food choices and calorie intake.

B - 383
1 banana - 60
20 g raisins - 63
52 g oatmeal - 200
100 g soymilk - 60

L - 280
Vegetable & cheese pie

S - 279
45 g goji balls - 189
1 cup elderflower juice - 90

D - eaten out calories unknown
Rocket and blue cheese salad
Rice with nuts, mushrooms and raisins
One sweet pepper stuffed with tomatoes and anchovies
Once scoop of chocolate ice cream
1 glass of wine

Calories - 942 + unknown dinner calories
Exercise - 1 1/2hr tennis
H2O - 16 oz

Thursday, 8 November 2007

Day 172

I've been having a somewhat disruptive week and not recording my food as diligently as I'm in the habit of doing. Unconsciousness around food is dangerous for me because it leads right back into poor choices and overeating. My exercise and water have also gone off kilter. :(

B- 480
250 yogurt - 245
1 slice of wheat bread - 135
1 tsp butter - 40
1 banana - 60

L - 434
250 yogurt - 245
45 g goji balls - 189

D - 409
52 g goat cheese - 204
3 cups of spinach - 30
1 slice wheatbread - 135
1 tsp. butter - 40

Calories - 1323
Exercise - 0
H2O - 24 oz

Wednesday, 7 November 2007

Day 173

Quite a caloric day. Though I 'm not sure what the damage is calorie wise because I was out all day.

B- 434
250 yogurt - 245
45 g goji balls - 189

L - ?
Tuna melt sandwich
Strawberry Shake

S - 434
250 yogurt - 245
45 g goji balls - 189


D - ?
Roasted vegetable and mozarella sandwich


Calories - too many
Exercise - 1/2 hr. walk
H2O - 24 oz

Tuesday, 6 November 2007

Day 174

I didn't have time to have a full lunch and when I got home I was so tired I though I'd just have a nap and then get up and have dinner. Well when I got up it was 5am Wednesday. :( I guess some days are going to be like this.

B - 383
1 banana - 60
20 g raisins - 63
52 g oatmeal - 200
100 g soymilk - 60

S
45 g goji balls - 189

L
250 yogurt - 245


Calories - 817
Exercise - 1 hr. tennis
H2O - 16 oz water :(