Tuesday 8 January 2008

Day 112

After work today I went to a GA meeting. It was so inspiring and I'm thinking of joining again, but I have to give it serious thought first.

GS is not a program for the faint hearted. It is not a diet club, but a recovery program based on the Alcoholics Anon. model. You weigh and measure three meals a day from the food plan (even when you go out to dinner, i.e without exception), you tell your sponsor what those meals will be and you don't eat anything in between your meals but coffee, tea, or diet soda. Everyday that you do this without deviation you count a day. After 90 days, you start the 12 steps of AA to help clear away emotional/spiritual debris from your life, a process which is designed to address the core reasons why we eat compulsively. It was in GA many moons ago that I first lost all my weigh and kept it off for 5 years before switching to regular OA where I kept it off for about another 5.
I am well aware of what is required of me, soooooo ... I guess it all comes down to how badly I want to lose the weight. I have been trying to lose this weight for three years. Just to give a quick history of me and obesity. I began putting on weight when I was about 8 and just grew and grew in size until I found GA in my 20s and started running. I lost all my weight and kept it off for about 10 years. Then I injured my knee and had to stop running, met my honey and he began to woo me with among other things, fancy restaurants and chocolate and I forgot that I had food/weight issues and started eating whatever I liked, whenever I liked and voila! 7 years later, I'm heavier than I've ever been.
I've been trying to lose this weight since the beginning of 2005 without success. I started this blog to help me and it has helped. I've lost almost about 8kgs. (not counting the damage I'm sure I did at Christmas) over the past 5 months, but I think I want to, need to do better than this. I need to be much more consistent with my food and exercise over a longer period of time, if I'm going to shed these kilos before the 22nd century. I don't agree with all of GA's philosophies, but I must admit it works and works well. Decisions ... Decisions.


B - 2641 apple- 74
150 g yogurt - 190
16 oz/470ml H2O

L -
28g cheese - 66
300 g yogurt - 250
2 cups of salad - 100
1 tbls. dressing - 74
16 oz/470ml H2O

Afternoon16 oz/470ml H2O

D -
28g cheese - 66
4 oz prawns - ?
2 cups of salad - 100
1 tbls. dressing - 74
16 oz/470ml H2O

Calories -
H2O - 64 oz
Exercise - O

3 comments:

  1. I don,t envy you , it would be a difficult decision as you already know the hard yards ahead of you if you decide to join.As you say, I suppose it comes down to how much you want it, I could only imagaine the reward at the end will be well worth it. Take your time woth the thought processes the last thing you want is to commit then realise it's not for you becasue that will only drag all the failure issues up (it would for me anyway)

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  2. Nona!

    I am so proud of you! I does sound a little hard, but you know what is best for you. Whatever you decide, I'm with ya all the way!

    We are gonna look great in 08!

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  3. I have been to OA meetings and they are a bit odd. I have never heard of Greysheet OA, but I will check. I have been wanting to do something with OA, but I usually find the group boring.

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