Monday, 28 January 2008

Day 92

I am going to buy shares in these light box things. They're magic. The weeks before I went to Barbados and since I got back have been just awful. I had absolutely no reason to be depressed but was. I felt so out of control, like some 'thing' was sapping the life, energy and joie d'vivre out of me and I was powerless to make it stop. Now, I've been getting up early and easily because of the dawn simulator feature on my light box and I sit by it for at least two hours every day while I work. Now I feel much more myself again. Energised and ready to make things happen.

Food wise, yesterday, was HARD but I was sooooooooo happy to finally get my food back on track. Today was much much easier. I was in such a good space that I was able to start exercising again. I did 1/2 hr on my elliptical. Yeah!!! Now I just need to work on my water intake.

To say a little more about G Anonymous. It is like Alcoholics Anon. but for people with food addictions or compulsive eating issues, which I believe I have. Now not everyone who is overweight is a food addict or a compulsive eater. Obviously, some people simply make poor choices when they eat or eat a little too much and end up overweight. Whatever the case, I got tired pussy-footing around with my weight and decided to turn up the heat on myself.

GA is not for the faint-hearted. I mean ... the program is very rigid and the people who do it are varying degrees of insane ... but it works if you work it and I'm going do my best to work it. Essentially, what is involved is: you choose someone who has done the program successfully for 90 days or more to be your sponsor. A sponsor is like a mentor. They give you the ga food plan (it's top secret but essentially it consists of protein, fruit and vegetables - no carbs, no sugar, no fun ;( and they explain how you use it.

Everyday, you select three meals (b,l,d) from said food plan, you write them down, call your sponsor and tell her/him what you are going to eat. You can then only eat what you have committed to eat. You can change your mind during the day but you have to call your sponsor or another program member and tell them the change. You can't eat anything in between meals except coffee, tea or diet soda. Everyday that you do this you count it as one day of successfully abstaining from compulsive eating. If you fail, i.e skip a meal, eat a chocolate bar, a grain of rice, one carrot too many, then you have slipped and you have to go back to Day 1 and start counting days over again. Oh and by the way you have to go to meetings (for support) and say, 'Hey, I'm Nona and I'm a compulsive overeater ...

My new sponsor a sweet French woman who lives in Paris has been abstinent for 15 1/2 years. Can you imagine? I can't but luckily I don't have to. All I have to do is get through today and I did. Yeah!!!

1 apple
56g cheese
1/2 liter H2O

112g tofu
112 g beets
224g salad
1 tbls. oil
1/2 liter H2O

56g cheese
224g cauliflower
446g salad
1 tbls butter
2 tbls. dressing

Water: 1 liters
Exercise: 30 min elliptical trainer


  1. Wow - that sounds pretty extreme - 15+ years on the greysheet plan! But obviously, if you're treating eating problems like alcoholism, it's something you have to keep on top of for the rest of your life or you could backslide very easily. Interesting approach.

    I'm so glad the lightbox is working for you. It made a huge difference to my family members over there. I'm recommending it to my friend Babzy in Canada too. She has depression issues, which worsen considerably due to SAD. I told her about your light alarm clock and she's going to check out getting one of those.

    What company makes them?

  2. A light box? Got a picture? I am going to work out now and drink some water. Thank you for reminding me.


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