Sunday, 16 September 2007

Day 225

Quote for Today:

Learn how to be happy with what you have while you pursue all that you want. Jim Rohn

Today I woke up feeling down in the dumps for no reason that I could discern. Through out my life it is feelings like this that have driven me to graze or binge on sugary foods. That has always been my way to cope with uncomfortable feelings. It was very very hard getting through today without doing that. Made me realise once again what a narcotic sugar is for me. When I am in this state and I eat it, it somehow numbs the feelings and allows me to relax, it may even give me a mood boost. In whatever way it works, when I am feeling like this, sweets always make me feel much better, but of course I can never just take one or two bites, I need one or two boxes.

I have not ruled sweets out of my program completely. Though I am not eating them now, I am allowing myself to have something sweet once a month if I want. I don't want to eat sweets though when I feel the way I do today, because that just reinforces the behaviour of using a substance to blunt my feelings so I don't have to face them.

B - 361

1 cup of yogurt - 260
1 cup of melon - 58
1 tbls of agave - 43

L- 338
2 oz cheese - 228
2 cups of soup- 110

D - 429
1 oz cheese - 114

2.5 oz veggie mince - 100
3 cups mixed vegetables - 115
1tbls. fat - 100
Calories - 1128
Exercise - rest
4 cups of water


  1. You are doing so well! Blogging your feelings about your eating habits can really help. Believe it or not, the cravings you are having will begin to die off soon. Is once a month a little harsh? I eat sweets once a week. I have a piece of cake normally, as that is my favourite food! I only have 1 free meal a week, but it satisfies me and lets me 'get on with it' without feeling deprived!

  2. Hey Livy, I am certainly looking forward to them dying off. Once a month is probably draconian, but I have a real difficulty just having one of or a piece of anything sweet.

    One bite seems to trigger me to eat a million bites, especially when I am vulnerable, so I am trying to really get things on solid ground before I begin to dip into the sugar again. I would love to get to the point that I can have a treat weekly.

    I am hopeful that I will get there in time.


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